|Emily AC: Multi-Talented Comedian||
I luv you guys and gals and stuff!
I got some app money paid, today :) that's good! Can't wait until it's done! Then I can show ppl my cool app :)
My world peace spygame app. Ummm... yes, thanx!
I was talking to a bank teller about the water situation. She asked if I wanted to buy or rent and I said rent... I don't want to get stuck with a house in a bone-dry area! Within four years we might just have to move and then we'll lose that asset! Better to rent!
We'll be out here as long as we can stand it, though... because my husband's job is a permanent placement. That's nice :) Permanent placement... who has that kind of job security???
He might stay fighting fires for up to another month. He gets extra pay so he's volunteering. It's so weird...
When he left for basic training... I was a wreck. I was not used to being seperated from my partner for so long. It was difficult for me to handle. A bunch of party-people tried to entice me to cheat... just because he wasn't there... and how would he know?
So... after a while I just stayed inside all the time. I lived in a pair of pajama pants of Chris' and this massive sweatshirt from a restaurant I used to work. If anyone wanted to chill with me... that's what I wore. Nice and absolutely not even the slightest bit sexy. But they still tried.
When he left for AIT, it was easier. I was stronger. Hardened to the constant sex invites. Bitchier.
Now, it's like... "ok. See you when you get home and I can't wait."
I miss him everyday, true. But there is not fear or confusion. He will be back and everything will be as it was. I know he will come back because there's no way he'd go through all the kinds of crap with me that he's dealt with unless he was stinkin' nuts for me!
...and I can't help it; nobody does it for me besides him, anymore. Nobody seems to believe that except other married people!
So, sure, I can see a bunch of people that I deem attractive everyday and I still won't want them. I may even watch a movie to fantasize about a celebrity... but if the same celeb walked up to me and asked... there's no way I would because I could lose my husband and nothing sounds worse than that! Losing my kids... that won't happen.
I'm so sorry others can't believe that I can find people sexually attractive and then still really not care about them. Whoopity-doo! My husband didn't become my husband for looking like a fuckin' movie star! I fell for his mind! For him.
He just looks like a regular nerd! Like straight-regular nerd stereotype. Not one of those hottie-tottie nerds... even so... I call him hottie-tottie; amongst other things. We own each others' hearts.
Here's how to think of my devotion for my husband... did you see that matt damon/heath ledger Grimm Fairy movie? There was this part where this bitch-queen chick put this metal-clamp thingy in matt damon's heart...
that's what it's like! My husband put a weird metal-love clamp thingy in my heart and there's nothing I can do, now!
This is why... when people say stupid things to me... insinuating that I want them or would or something... it's like...
Get over yourself! I like to help people. I like to make acquaintences. That's all I did for you; or tried to. You are the douchebag in this instance, I assure you :)
I... am... so... reluctant... to... do... open... mic... right... now...
I need to get back out... but I don't want to have to terrify more assholes. I'm sure I'll have to. I want a fucking open mic buddy or two out here, damn it! No more being the weirdo all alone all the time! LAME!
Well... we'll see. I'll probably be the rogue weirdo, again... 'Tis my forté!