|Emily AC: Multi-Talented Comedian||
someone I hung out with and haven't spoken to in a bit. He wanted to be part of the film but he's an entrepreneur and entertainer so he's busy working, a lot.
Ultimately, I find it sad that I couldn't find a chick buddy. That's how it always is. But I did find two serious man-gems :) I think I'll keep them as friends that I talk to, regularly, forever!
So... LA can't be considered a mistake! Besides... I feel enlightened to a very bad situation that I just wasn't privy to without actually seeing it. This is the danger of the sheltering parent.
If you don't properly prepare your child for anything they could be up against... they will be disturbed when they witness it. That's just how it works in this life. That's why I call it "programming." If you are programmed to be doted after... then that's what you expect!
I was not doted over. I was programmed to think everything sux. There's nothing but complaining at our family get-togethers. The only "positive" things to say are bragging rights. My family thinks I brag the most because of the family I built... which can eat together practically every night with conversations that are good in nature and fun. Without a television on.
Fine. If describing my life and why it makes me happy is bragging... then I'm bragging!!!
I always feel like me talking about how my family makes me happy is me trying to tell people that having a nice family is just a good, comfortable experience. Not scary. The responsibilities of husband and children just doesn't matter when compared to the benefit of them being alive and a part of my life.
People wonder why some rush to parenting when they are young... you were alone and harmed in childhood and you crave loving relationships. Yes; I knew that. That explains why I wanted to learn as much about parenting as possible before I gave birth. I didn't want to fuck up my kid.
They're not perfect... but perfection is a farce to be feared. My children are complex little darlings with individual traits that I both admire and adore. However, they do need correction from time to time... and I'm glad that--the older each of them gets--the fewer and fewer times I feel the need to correct them :) They just like being good natured!
It feels better than being an asshole does :) That's why I'm going to touch base with my pal... another parent.