|Emily AC: Multi-Talented Comedian||
I wanted to just explain chemical balance better. I have a youtube demonstration about this on my emilyac channel. I put things up on my smart phone that I don't understand, and frankly, probably never will. There are a few different emily ac's. Tough. I'm keeping it for myself.
I love the new comments that I'm getting in stand up... solely due to the fact that I'm just a little more excited! Listen... that's actually how I am when I'm excited. It's just that few get to see me hyped up like a puppy!
It's like: "FUCK YEAH! I'M REALLY GOING TO DO THIS! BOOM! AND I'VE GOT PEOPLE SMART ENOUGH TO UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM TRYING TO DO, HERE!"
You can think of chemical balance in many different ways. You can call it 'happiness' because that's exactly what it is. I like to call it 'optimal performance' because I'm a fan of COMPUTERS (not smart phones--addicting and also just not good enough).
Basically... everything about body and brain is working the way it should. If you have problems, my friends, you have to identify what it is that ails you and eliminate it from your life. It doesn't matter what it is. Even if that's family.
You can tell your mom to fuck off if she continuously meddles and screws things up. She does this for everyone in my family. A lot of people I hear in stand up DO blame mom and/or dad. Tell them off, then. I'm an adult. I don't care if you have some stupid issue with me whenever I fix the last issue you had with me! You're keeping me down! A loving parent wouldn't do that!
Everyone's issues are different... but what people haven't noticed is that we all share universal symptoms, no matter what the mental illness. The main symptom, no matter the person, is trust. We can't trust anyone, anymore.
I also noticed that everyone has the wrong idea about love. People think that love is happiness. No, love is a component of happiness. There is no love without trust. There is no trust without comfort. Ergo, you will never fall in love with a person unless you feel comfortable around them. It's like a domino effect.
A lot of people think that you can fall in love at first sight. No... not usually. That is a coincidence, sometimes, when two already happy people are extremely attracted to each other, then have sex and like it a lot, and then figure, "Why go anywhere?" I can see how it feels like something else is happening... but your brain is sort of like a graceful computer.
When you run at optimal performance you seem like a spazzy robot because of your speedy brain. If you want to antiquate to everyone else, you have to slow way down for everyone. That's why I get into giggle fits whenever someone else tries to make fun of me for being stupid. I can get into hysterical laughter about it. I just keep laughing and teasing them until they give up.
I want you to feel like this. Everyone, everywhere. But you have to understand that your brain isn't quite a computer. It is natural; organic. You think more like on a line or a wavelength; a degree. You can also think of it as an elegant math problem. All of math is very elegant.
If love is something you seek; you're setting your sights too low. Love is a necessary chemical reaction you need to achieve happiness. So if you feel in love, but feel unfulfilled, then you blame the partner and break up.
All of your body systems have to be up to speed. You can't just work on the things you like. You have to face up to every fear or foe and figure out how to overcome them if push comes to shove.
And, no, you can't get to that place without eating like a bunny! Very little meat and WAY more veggies than they told you at school. That's why I say this is programming. Everyone has the wrong idea about everything... And I figured this stuff solely by being stubborn about being loving and nice!
I DON'T WANT TO BE A FUCKING BITCH, ASSHOLE! I JUST WANT TO BE A GOOD PERSON AND ENJOY MY LIFE! I WOULD NEVER HURT YOU! THAT DOESN'T GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO DO IT TO ME!
That's the only concept I'm ever bitchy about. What do you care if I'm different from you? You don't have to maintain association with me! Understand that I don't care because I have a life. I get what I want because I want things that are achievable. I NEVER would have bothered with this if I didn't think I could help everyone. Including psychos.
I've known a lot of psychos and socios. I get how they think and I can show how they went wrong. In the case of some psychos... they just need the scare of their lives to get them in the right direction. Even if they pissed their pants... they likely would choose a different path in life. It's a far more compassionate thing to do than prison for a sick person.
Love is comfort. Happiness is the miracle. Set your sights higher.