The idea had to be suggested that I had what it took to lead... because you can always lead by example. If you teach well enough--you've just lead someone; somehow.
It never occured to me that I could potentially lead a lot of people; but I've done so, in the past, plenty of times... I just didn't value it as power because I had no agenda other than just have some fun!
That's never how I pictured leadership! It always seemed like those who searched for fun would be doomed to ruin; I embraced the notion so the suffer of defeat wouldn't be as painful... but my kind of fun is different than what they always suggest fun should be.
They; as in, the general depiction as rendered in song, tv, and film, the mass. It is always suggested that fun is, basically, sex and barbarism whilst drunk. It is suggested that learning and bonding with others (even sober) is the loser's life. There I went and embraced that!
I went for happiness the way I thought I should... I didn't take the advice of people that seemed full of shit or stupid or miserable... I listened to my intuition... I followed people I thought were admirable. I tried my best to ignore bullshit.
Well... Because I manage to get up and try in different ways... I've learned more over more areas than most my age. When I rebeled against conformity--I wanted to define myself. I also wanted to accept myself... but it felt like my family couldn't accept how I was.
so... to anyone reading that enjoys reading this blog... I ask that you not be jealous of any quality I possess. Because when you achieve happiness--your brain will show you how all of your skills can come together to make a real difference.
You need to focus on what's potentially keep you from achieving happiness... because I had all of these skills for years and years and years; but I still couldn't put it all together.
Listen to amazing by aerosmith. That's what it feels like to be happy. You didn't think a feeling like that was possible. You feel like you're on aderol all day long--but calm, fun, sociable and down-to-earth (and sober).
...But you can't stay happy like that if you have a strong sense of empathy. You can't deal with constant misery all around you. How can one be happy in a world full of half-dead, confused, crazy people??? You can't. It's impossible.
...Especially if you want to blend. The happy person gets all the attention in a room full of miserable people. Happiness is attractive.
So how do you achieve happiness? Read this blog's first post. It sounds dumb... but, it's backed by science in many ways (that I'd prefer you do your due diligence about instead of blindly accepting it as fact... you study this shit, too, to see how it's true!)
...AND PLAY THE OVERMIND!
please help out... world peace? huh? good plan!
*hugs* YOU CAN BE HAPPY!