|Emily AC: Multi-Talented Comedian||
It's important to find someone that clicks with you. There always has to be relationship balance. You can never need to domin8 or submit to a person in a loving relationship. As in... if you want it to last FOREVER it has to be a completely trustworthy relationship. That only comes from balance.
The interesting thing is... those most attractive to us usually fall within a control/submit category!
Let's use myself as an example. I am depressed with psycho/sociopathic tendencies which is my go-to mental illness of choice. I don't want to fight... but if I have to, I'M GOING TO WIN!!! NO MATTER WHAT!!!
This how I was raised. My entire family is probably happy to hear me say that... because when I forced myself into psychopathy I scared them all so badly I don't talk to any of them, anymore... except for my dad, sometimes.
I'm sure they'd be happy to hear that I'm my annoying old self, again!
Anyway... So... I'm depressed with psychopathic tendencies. You will not control me. I do as I please. I wish to please... so this shouldn't be issue to anybody, EVER.
I'm best suited to a depressed with insane tendencies... why??? They never mean to control. They will buckle if you insist they've made a mistake... and then when you PROVE you were RIGHT... after a few of these episodes your man actually appreciates your word as valuable when you're trying to alert him to something!!! AMAZING!!!
What kind of man is my kryptonite? The insane man...
Oh, well, that's not a smart thing to admit on your blog. Oh... no worries... my husband knows this. Whenever he smells trouble he kicks into overdrive. He always knows what to do to keep the situation under perfect control...
In my eyes... he's like a ballet dancer in his mastery of altercations of any kind! If he thinks a man is honing in on his territory... he ups his game a notch in whatever area is necessary... he always knows what's wrong... he always gets it out of me and he always makes me feel better.
This is why he has no worry with me going out for midnight mic. It fits the best in a parent's schedule and I'm a night owl, anyways. My kids like to do their own thing in the morning... they don't want me to do it because they can all cook. So... I stay up late and I get to sleep in and I spend the best parts of the day with them and tuck them into bed (well... the girls. My boy is too big).
I love this lifestyle. I'd be stupid to risk it. I'm a realist... I've heard the figures... odds aren't the best that relationships will last... it's practically a 50/50 shot! So... look at the reasons... money; cheating. Same reason most murdered married people are murdered.
Well... guess what... Half of people go crazy nice and half of people go crazy mean. That's what I see, everywhere. Depresseds and insanes hang out and psychos and bipolars hang out.
Depresseds and insanes stay married and get fat, cranky, and stay together--yo-yoing between good and bad times. Psychos and bi-polars marry and do virtually the same thing but include nasty divorces in there... and cheating... and ultimatims...
The reason why the insane is my intoxicant is because of my over-zealous sense of empathy. Insanes do nothing but spout the horrors of their lives... well... the nice horrors... the really bad things they don't mention because... weird. Plus... they usually block that shit out because thinking about it won't help their situation (living with a psycho/socio that torments them at any time, for no reason... usually).
And I want to calm the insane person. And protect them. Make sure they are never hurt, again! The insane knows they need this, instinctively... and obsession starts up, right away. Everyone has an obsession level. Some only get to "crush" when they are in a healthy relationship...
However... many insane people haven't ever been in one! They want that so badly... They can get just as psycho/socio when they get fixated... because they think their intent is good!!!
The more intelligent the insane man... the more likely he is to cyberstalk as much as humanly possible and watch from afar... he does not want to give himself away! Nobody would ever believe the chick, anyway, because he is so NICE!!!
How many insanes and psychos have I had to deal with??? Don't know. My kids' dad was diagnosed as insane... lemme' tell you why our relationship was candy...
Cuddling/loving/sexing. No fights...well... I never wanted to fight...
So he would do stuff to drive me crazy!!! He didn't like it getting too happy! I always tried to talk it through... he always looked like he expected me to beat him!!! I had to tell him a few times that I would never hit him...
But he was addicted to pain... so he wanted constant disparagement... I never gave it to him... he had to fuck up, BADLY for me to get angry enough with him to yell and throw shit and threaten him!
THAT'S WHAT HE WANTED!!! He makes me cry, always. He doesn't want to fix himself.
Well... psychos and I get along, these days... because I scare the shit out of them and they don't want to die. The insane wants to be abused to death... so they see my act and they rave like lunatics and give the highest praise... and if it's guy... will I, also, please beat him and humiliate him during sex, please?
Why will the insane man attempt to fuck me when the psychos cower in fear???
BECAUSE THEY REALLY THINK I'M SEXY WHEN I'M MAD!!! THEY WANT TO ASK ME OUT BECAUSE THEY WANT ME TO BE A TERRIBLE BITCH TO THEM!!!
...so I just got away from some insanes that I tried to shake (and couldn't... 'cuz I'm the bitchiest bitch at the bar and no sub-par bitch... no matter how single and/or horny for the dude... two dudes... two chix into them... both dudes clueless and don't care even though the chick is perfect for them and also single... AND in each case, the chick is a Shit-ton like ME... so I'm annoyed on their behalf... I see myself in SAME LEAGUE with both women... oh, but, neither them have husbands or children... so who wants them??? Funny, beautiful, single comediennes)...
...and my husband I now live with one. Who needs my number 'cuz we live together... and has already tried to exploit my EXTREME FEAR OF MOTORCYCLES (like, never. no. leave me alone. my mom programmed my fear well. so did doctor surgery shows. I'm not riding your motorcycle)... and my husband got called in to active duty being a hero for two weeks and I'm stuck with a guy that REALLY freaks me out...
'cuz, once again, here's another dude that sees me as marriage material! BECAUSE I'M A FIERCE WOMAN THAT IS ALREADY MARRIED AND FAITHFUL!!!
They, dementedly, think that if they steal me that I will be faithful to them!!!
THEY DON'T GET THAT THAT IS DIVINE IRONY!!!
*shakes head and says in Minnesotan* ya know... it's just a darn shame but I guess ya' can't help everyone...
OR CAN YOU??? *YES*